WHY EVOLVV

Ever feel like you’re not good enough?

Ever questioned your own ability?

Do you ever look at other people and compare yourself?

Yeah me too.

Every person has their own struggles and insecurities, the majority of people only show you what they want you to see and that’s something I am hoping to change. We all have goals, wishes, hopes and dreams and the only way we will achieve them is by taking that big leap and coming out of our comfort zone.

I’ll never forget the day where I said to myself enough was enough and literally changed my whole outlook on life.

I think I was about 19 years old when I came out of a really unhealthy relationship, my whole life revolved around him. I liked things because he liked them, I put up with being treated like a dick because I thought that was love and really dimmed down my own light – This is not love. This is not acceptable.

One day, I remember waking up and being like ‘what the fuck am I doing here?’ and it was like everything had clicked in that moment. Long story short I grew some balls broke up with my then boyfriend of 3 years and I was heartbroken, but the weight of uncertainty had been lifted off my shoulders and I knew it was the right decision.

Everyone deals with break-ups in different ways and that’s okay, looking back on my post breakup behaviour I feel like I had dignity and I did myself justice. But on the flip side partied probably a bit to hard and to the point where I let myself go which then led to other insecurities.

To put it into perspective; I was going out 3/4 times a week, eating takeaways 2/3 times a week, smoking, never had any money/was rubbish with money, barely getting a good nights sleep, very negative and felt hard done by – made excuses for everything, not drinking any water and not looking after my mental health because I was too busy prioritising searching for that happiness that I had ‘lost’.

This is where the gym became my therapy.

It was tough I’m not going to lie. I’d leave work at 5.30pm and sit in the changing rooms until a private room was free so I could train without people watching me (the gym anxiety was real). I felt ugly, I was my biggest ever due to over indulging post break up and my twin sister was playing football professionally so whenever she came home she would be as fit as a fiddle which made me feel even worse about myself. I remember being in the gym changing rooms with her once and just sat there, crying, because she had a six pack and I didn’t (there is more to life than a six pack ladies FYI, I was emotional ok haha) But the point is, I didn’t give up. My head was not going to win this one. I wanted the change so badly and it was only going to happen if I sucked it up and put myself out my comfort zone.

Fast forward a year, numerous influencers guides were purchased (lol dont judge) but my outlook at the gym had changed. No matter what, I went. I knew how it made feel, the weight was slowly coming off (its a marathon, not a sprint ) and day by day the routine was becoming my saving grace. I was happier and everything else started improving around me. The light at the end of the tunnel was getting brighter.

If you’re struggling to get into routine or don’t know where to start my schedule looked a little like this; I’d either get up and go to the gym for 5.30am or go after work.

Monday – rest day. I hated training on a Monday, I always felt tired from the weekend so I liked to ease myself back into the working week.

Tuesday – gym

wednesday – gym

Thursday – gym

Friday – rest (usually friday nights would be a night out with the girls)

Saturday – gym/rest depending on how I felt or if i went out

Sunday – rest

This routine stuck with me for a good 3 or so years and even through my darkest, toughest times I always showed up and I am now where I am due to my dedication and persistence of wanting to become my happiest self. I can truly say I am now the happiest I’ve ever been. Mentally, physcially & financially.

This is where I ask you again, Why Evolvv?

We are all human. I have felt the same feelings as you.

Evolvv isn’t about me, it’s about all of us. We all want things we think we cannot have. We all want to achieve things that we think are out of our reach. We are all going through things in life that will impact our future, whether that be a positive or negative impact that is down to you.

(i’d like this in quote marks or something)

“Everyone buys books, few ever read them.

Everyone wants growth, few accept pain.

Everyone wants to be happier, few ever change.

Intention is nothing without action, but action is nothing without intention.

Progress happens when your intentions and actions become the same thing.” – Steven Bartlett